As the day approaches...

As the day June 17th draws closer, a jumble of emotions- excitement, apprehensiveness, doubt, anticipation- flood my mind. I cannot wait to venture out and take in all that will happen on this trip. At the same time, I begin to realize all that will be left behind... at the present moment, I am not worried about the "things" I will be leaving- the comforts of my daily life ( although, I'm sure at some point I will miss them). Right now, its the people. Those that are such a significant part of my life- I wonder how those relationships will alter/ adjust/ deteriorate/ grow. 

Personally, I hate the end of things- movies (honestly, the end of Lord of the Rings makes me cry inside), books, friendships, stages of life (some more than others).  I have always tried to take a perspective that sees each end as a new beginning. The last thing I want is to set off for an adventure like this and leave the friendships and connections that exist in my life behind. I guess that is a lot of why I want to do this "blog." I would much rather talk in person, face to face, in the presence of, than post vague and emotionally-inhibited blogs. But seeing that I can't bring you all with me (of which many of you wouldn't even if I could :P) this blog will have to do. 

So as I prepare to leave, I seek to spend my time with those people whom will not be going with me (thats pretty much everyone- cuz I'm going alone- or am I?). 

Peace